yes, I realize it has been MONTHS since I have blogged. I want to apologize to all my faithful readers ( I always knew I could count on you mom), for the lack of great stories, magical moments, and treasured memories. Let's go deeper into why this 'lack' has occured:
1. School. Who knew senior year would be the most busy of all 4 years here at Utah State. not this girl.
2. I am lucky enough to have 2, count them 2, jobs. Both have to do with teaching, my new found love in life. I teach 2 modern dance classes and am the UTF for an interior design class.
3. Also, lucky for me I happen to be the Interior Design ASID President here on campus. This means I get to plan meetings, events, and do paperwork. Holler.
4. Another lucky moment, I happen to be the Student Rep. to the Board for ASID. This means I am in charge of all design program students in 4 states, along with meetings, phone calls, and planning events.
5. I am on USU's dance company, Full Circle. This means I have practice 4 times a week and performances periodically. If you haven't checked us out do it.
6. Not only am I on the team, I happen to be the public relations officer, meaning I get to do posters, and fliers, and announcing.
7. Also, it seems as though I have broken into the freelance market of graphic design and interior design, creating much needed real experience.
8. Church, no it's not a bad time waster, but it still has to be thrown in there for dramatic effect.
9. Dating. It didn't exist before, it definitely doesn't exist now.
And there you have it, that's been my life the past 4 months. I honestly am so blessed to be put into all these positions and have all of these amazing opportunities. I cherish the people I work with in all capacities so much. My life may be extremely busy but it's also filled with the most joy I have ever had.
So it's been called to my attention that I graduate in less than 6 months. Yes this causes an instant heart attack. I have always been in school, and probably always will be. I love it far to much. If it wasn't expensive I think i would stay forever. I think I inherited this from my father. This brings a lot of anxiety, but also a lot of hope. I have the world before me, and I can't seem to take that step forward into starting out the rest of my life. That step is going to leave a huge mark on my life path. Here are my options:
1. I have thought so much lately about going on a mission. I had an incredible answer to a prayer, only 2 years too late. I've always found answers through hymns. It even mentions that in my patriarchal blessing. It actually mentions many things related to missionary work.
Anyway, the story goes, one morning at relief society in my parents ward we had a lesson on the priesthood. My mom was in the nursery so I was sitting by myself. As we begin to sing the closing song, my throat closes up, my eyes begin to tear uncontrollably, and I can't even sign. The song- Called to serve. How many millions of times have I sung that song... but for some reason it hit me really hard and heavenly father told me that i need to go. As I am uncontrollably crying... I run into mom who asks me, naturally, what was wrong. I reply nothing bad, let's talk later. We get home and mom needs to know. I start crying and say it's not a bad thing. Her response was immediately, " you want to go on a mission." I have had several more experiences where people just randomly say when are you going on a mission, or are you going on a mission. It's such a hard decision to make due the fact that I'm a baby.
2. I can get a job in SLC and live and work and be happy.
3. I can get a job anywhere in the world, make money, gain experience, and miss my family like crazy.
4. I can go back to school and get a masters so I can teach at the university.
5. I can take a test to be a teacher at the new high school in Draper and also coach dance.
TOO MANY CHOICES! Isn't life supposed to be easy? Oh, oh yeah, that's right. I almost feel lost, but it's not lost. Its so hard for me to believe that I am at this stage in my life. As a little girl, I imagined myself going to college and being a teacher. I think that's where my true passions really meet. As for now, here I am writing a blog, while I should be sleeping or doing homework so I can graduate. Story of my OCD life.
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